well, i keep thinking to myself, why do i have a blog if i dont blog regularly. i mean i am a journaler, a writer a keeper of memories, so why have i found a challenge. i have found no answer but instead created more questions, why do i blog? do i think there is an audience, do i just want a place to record thoughts, do i have things to share or offer? In the end I guess it doesnt matter.
What matters is that when I post there should be substance. So here is the current thought replaying itself in my head lately. I had a dream and I really thought it was a television show until I woke up, it was one of those good very real dreams. And it involved one of my favorite people to watch on tv, Oprah. In the dream, she was being interviewed, by me of all people. There were a few introductory questions and then this one which is what has stuck in my mind for a few weeks now. Me: "When did you know you were destined for greatness?" Oprah: "When did you decide you weren't?" Me, startled: "What, um, I asked when did it become evident to you that you were being given the opportunity to influence and change the lives of others in such an impactful way?" Oprah: "Have you not been given this same opportunity?" Me, "Well, I am referring to your rise in media, and stature as one of the most influential persons over the last few decades." Oprah: "Have you chosen not to harness your potential?" Me, "Clearly you misunderstand my questions and reasons for being here." Oprah: "Perhaps its your misunderstanding that has brought you here, for nothing has been afforded to me that is not already available to you. Where I may have a visible opportunityo reach a mass, you have such opportunity yourself to reach those around you. To be a voice of change, a voice of love and of hope. For who knows the paths of those you cross and how the chain reaction can occur. Do not despise who or what you are, for you are given the same as I, but the question is, what are you doing with it?" Me, gulping: "Its not the same." Oprah: "You are right its not the same that you question greatness when all you need for greatness is already within you. Do not call greatness notoriety, nor should you attach it to a bank account, nor to a visible abilty, greatness is what calls you inside to do something different, something right, something impactful, it is what causes you to pay for someone elses meal in a drive thru, it is what causes you to go the extra mile for a friend in need, greatness is within each of us, so when did you decide you were not purposed for greatness? Have you determined that mediocrity is your standard? Have you decided that living today is just a means of getting to tomorrow? You must choose to accept the responsibility of greatness."
And to this I awoke, immediately looking to see if I fell asleep with the tv on. No, it really was a dream, and one that has evoked such mental conversations over the last few weeks. At times I can just be doing the mondaine, such as washing dishes and I hear that voice say, "When did you decide you weren't?" So now the question is what do I do with this conversation. What do we do when we realize such profound things, how can we possibly look at life through the same glasses anymore?
Today I am determinded to find greatness as a mother, and wife, as a housekeeper, as a teacher, as a friend, as a member of a community.